BAD week..i mean lastt week..todae's mondae..
had a bad week lastt week..
everytingg screwed up lahs..fark it..
project nobody bother to do..do it all by myself.thx to weijian did help abit..
and is lik i only have one night to do ..nxt dae mus hand in..which is fridae..
fridae morning chiong finishh..luckily manage to complete..
first week of scoo is lik so dam busyy doing project la..
todae;s the second week..dam sianz lahs..
noe my results xcept for PECONs..tt farking ttcher didnt return cos don have his lesson last week..and i fail BUSFUN..omg.and is nt marginal fail but is by alot..dam disappointed lahs..
study oso will fail..(scream out loud).realli dam disappointed..i needa improve my gpa but is lik impossible already..*sigh-
quarrel with him last sat..a dam big one...
i'm lik so farked up lah..owaes quarrel abt same ting but in the end oso nth change..ii'm quite disappointed wit him and his attitude abt tis relationship..there's lots of tings i want to sae or rather is complain.but jus cant sae out..but it has been bottled up for a yr already..which iss when we get back together til now..there;s lots of doubts..but all my hope turn to disappointment and water...
i listen to wadever u wan..u don likk my friens,i stae at home.wad u donlik i try to avoid..i realli don understand wad else more u wan...
everitink u don care,don sae,don understand and don even giv a dam to mi at all la..
4yrs ago til now, u didnt change at all..mayb i'm nt attractive enough for u,or mayb u have nt find the right girl for u and just pass yr time with mi..
the insecurity feeling u won noe.coss forever is ppl treat u good nvr will i treat u lik dirt..u nvr had such feelings before.u'll nvr understand how it feels..
i don show the unhappiness on my face ... i'm owaes smiling and joking around.. but the unhappiness jus won go away..for the past yr,being wit u make mi happy but oso unhappy.
inside mi i feel so miserable..sometimes i feel tt it makes no different if we are nt together..i dono if we shld continue..remain lik tis for the time being?the problem won be solvedd.or a breakup?we can still be friens...at lease there's some good memories for us.. i'm confused..i dono wad u wan.things tt u sae seems to be lies..i dono wan i can do already...i'm tiredd after sitting the roller-cooster with u..u give mi lots of hope,but in the end i'll still fall..
maybe if given another chance u and i wil never choose to take these routes.
foolish to repeat the mistake again..be have beem through this before which is 3 yrs ago..but i didnt noe same things will still happen..
alright ..enough of toking..fark it..fark the whole world..
i need some peace..
i hate myself for loving you
& •kissмέ•❥
Monday, June 30, 2008
You're all I ever wanted ;
